“Everybody wants to be on the mountaintop, but if you’ll remember, mountaintops are rocky and cold. There is no growth on the top of a mountain. Sure, the view is great, but what’s a view for? A view just gives us a glimpse of our next destination-our next target. But to hit that target, we must come off the mountain, go through the valley, and begin to climb the next slope. It is in the valley that we slog through the lush grass and rich soil, learning and becoming what enables us to summit life’s next peak.”—
“Why do some people don’t exert effort during fights? Is it because they don’t really appreciate giving efforts to win you back? Or is it because they know that you’ll be crawling back to them once you’re calm?”—(via strawberrytelle)
September 15, 2012 - Talked to you over the phone.
Though there were some times that you have messaged me over Facebook and we had some conversations, I still consider September 15 as the day I got to know you.
Can’t remember the month but it was around 2013 when you told me you lied about your age. Of course, my expectations from what we are going to be changed. Still, I chose to continue with whatever it is that we have.
2 Christmas, 2 New Years Eve, 2 Valentines day had passed. We were still good. We’re having good conversations, crazy and silly jokes, petty fights, misunderstandings and still we managed to go on with our thing.
April 1, 2014 - April Fool’s Day. As I was putting on a joke about us, I was surprised about something I’ve never known instead. I’ve known you for about a year and a half. And it was devastating to know that such a big lie would ruin whatever it is I ever dreamed of being with you.
I talked to you about it. I was crying. I listened to your part of the story. I never blamed you. I just asked you why. I never really thought I could be this understanding, why your sorry was accepted by me, and why I was this dumb considering I should have just forget everything that we had.
Yes, it’s not easy to accept things. Things that I can no longer change. Things that already happened right before we got to know each other. Things that I know you will still end up being with. It’s not easy. It is a burden. You’re right, I really felt so bad.
I’m sick of listening to your lies. I’m tired of the same intuitions I’m dealing with. I thought you were really perfect. But you’re not. You’re neither Mr. Right nor Mr. Perfect. I felt like I was really playing a game. I was played on. But I enjoyed it anyway.
You were the craziest man I’ve known. Funny. Yeah, has a good sense of humor. But you’re the greediest man I’ve seen. I just feel sorry for whoever they are that you kept playing on. It’s a good thing that you’ll be gone for good. I may have said what I’m feeling is separation anxiety. Yes, I was afraid of losing you.
But like what I’ve said, I am tired. And like what you’ve said, nothing lasts forever. It’s time to move on. It’s time to let go. I know if I’ll be holding on to you, that will just complicate what I feel. It’s hard to forget you because you gave me much memories to remember. But it’s time to say bye.
I salute you for being a good liar. But there’s still a thing you’re missing about our story. And I think, it’s better left untold. Just like how womanizers take their secrets, I must take it to my grave. But a glimpse will do. Has anyone told you a bitch like me could be a good fvckin liar too? :)
My Sunday Shift has always been the best. No bosses around. We eat a lot in our stations. We floor walk. We chict chat and do the typical office slacking: put on make ups, use cellphones, do the nails, search google etc. But last night was the worst.
Had a very severe cramps starting from my waist down to my feet. I guess it was because of the very cold temperature inside the production floor. Felt like I was almost dying. I wanted to cry. I wanted to go home. Almost called mom to pick me up. But I didn’t. Good thing my very thoughtful friend, Jamie, went outside to get me some medicines.
I was almost crying. And it’s too bad there were lots of agents calling me for supe calls, which obviously, I couldn’t take. After an hour of suffering, the temperature inside went warmer and the meds I took already worked. God! It was one hell of a shift. I’m not used to being sick. Though I know I’ll be sick this rest days, I have pending coughs. Oh my! I hate it.
I went out of the floor right before 6am. Packed my things immediately kasi makikita na naman ni crush yung magulo kong locker. -_- I was about to close my locker and got surprised when I turned my head and saw him approaching his. I immediately uttered “Sorry..” and he was like “wala pako sa locker ko nagsosorry kana.. sige mauna kana…” Lol. That’s crazy right?
"Sorry" was always my line every time we’re both locking our things up. Someone needs to make a way for the other to fix things. As a sign of being a gentleman, he always say "sige, ikaw na muna." Kfine. Hahah. I can’t help it the other day, I sneaked at his locker ng pasimple. Oh my! Ang ayos ayos ng locker niya. :(
Sabihin nang feelingera ako, nagkasabay kami sa elevator. Of course, I’m with friends. Nauna siya. Then nagpahuli. Then I can see him taking a glance on US. Oh, “US” ha.. hindi “ME”. Lol. Caught him twice. Ano yan kuya, feeling pogi? Hay. Enebe Sir Chief.
PBB Teens. Got to believe. Feelingerang teenager peg ko. HAHAHA. Dear crush, palipat ka na sa account namin. :))
Yung uuwi ka ng may super duper bonggang ngiti sa labi. Ayayay! Ang tamis. And as I type this, I just can’t stop smiling. Hanggang ngiti nalang muna tayo. :) :) :) :) Hay crush… You really made my day. ^.^